The psychosomatics of our physical grief for our inauthenticity.
Failure is something that people subconsciously manifest for themselves through neglect.
We do this
'failure thing',
to
free
ourselves
from the
inconsequential
so
that we
can focus
on
what
we
truly
love.
Psychosomatic, because we may experience our failure as something physically manifest. A slumped over form, sluggish movement and a melancholic disposition. This is our subconscious minds immune defence response to doing something we truly don't love.
As we 'fail', we may consciously 'think' that we grieve for our failure at the very thing that we do not love. The conscious mind, at some point long ago, became disconnected from the body and from the subconscious. Became determined to conform to the external programs that have now become internalised, alienating, self-expectations. We do what we do because everyone wants to be wanted, needs to be needed and loves to be loved. But that doing, it's just not us. It's not who we really are. At a deeper level we know this and so the subconscious wisdom our authenticity slowly, but surely rises within us and says,
STOP DOING THIS THING. START SELF-LOVE.
Inner child screams out for the social justice of our authenticity, breaks through the melancholy, manifest as ridiculous objections or perhaps petulance promoting preposterous probable cause. The only true failure has been our failure to recognise that we don't love what we are doing, and so as a consequence of our dissatisfaction, we give it all that we have got to neglect that thing, as discreetly as possible, so that no one notices who we truly are.
So that we don't have to
continue experiencing
a success we just
don't want. WE ARE NOT FAILING WHEN WE STOP
DOING SOMETHING THAT WE
JUST DON'T LOVE.
This thing we call failure is more simply the externalisation of our inner world that is trying to tell us, "Hey you, what we truly love, we put our heart and soul into and become great at. You're struggling at this, because it's just not you. And that's OK, for it to not be you. You are doing this thing for other people, who will love you even more, if you, will, just, be, you." This misplaced idea that we have about grieving, what it really is is grief that we didn't start being WHO WE TRULY ARE EARLIER. We are so caught up in our programmed expectations, that we have allocated that grief to failure to meet others expectations to be someone that the universe never intended us to be. We feel that grief so inexplicably, that grief becomes physicaly manifest in our bodies. If we remain inauthentic long enough, then our grief at inauthenticity manifests itself as sickness.
A pain that comes to warn us...
THIS IS NOT WHO YOU ARE!
STOP! GET OUT!
In the moment that we fall in love with our truest self, inner child begins the work of healing from the inside out. Sit still. Listen now. See? You feel the wonder of self. Stay there, in those child like moments, for you have found heaven, when you have found your love for your self. And now you can say thank you for your failure.
Thank you for letting me know, this is not me.
Thank you for the opportunity to learn.
And to grow more into being,
me.
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